i’m not sure what happened to us. or why. or really even how.
i just know that one day i woke up and we were not the same as we had been in the days before.
we took a pause that has lasted years and now i wasn’t even sure what to say. until now.
sometimes i miss us. what “us” was i’m not sure but i know the feeling and the feeling was good.
sometimes i miss the talks we had. the unraveling of layers. the heart to hearts. the realness and the truth that we shared with each other that we didn’t share with anyone else.
we trusted each other. we loved each other.
whether it was real or maybe i just saw and felt what i wanted to see and what i wanted to fell i’m not sure. that was back during a time where i wasn’t sure of much. i was finding myself. in the midst of finding myself you were there to make the discovery a bit more interesting and enjoyable.
it’s been years and while we have yet to cross paths again i wish you the best out there.
it’s not that i want the old thing back. it’s not that i want us to make up, or find closure, or whatever.
you’ve come to me in my dreams a few times lately and i’m not sure what it means. but i want you to know that there is no ill will or wishes coming from me to you. only joy. i’m rooting for you from afar and i can only hope that you’re doing the same.
i honestly don’t see it in the stars for us to re align or for our footsteps to walk side by side again.
i just want to send you joy. and happiness.